To say I have been in a bit of a funk would be an understatement. I have been having a hard time with life. And I am over it.
This week I am going to get back into my groove. I plan on working out every day…well, except for Thursday because I have after school conferences. I also plan on eating really well this week. I went to the grocery store yesterday and bought a bunch of good food including chicken tenderloins, spinach, celery, carrots, and baby corn. These ingredients will, along with brown rice and eggs, make my not-so-famous chicken fried rice. Which I love and it is very healthy and will be enough for dinner and several lunches. I also made Caitlyn’s corn bread quiche this weekend. I think she must use a Jiffy mix or something and I made homemade cornbread so the cornbread to other ingredients ratio was not right. However, I just cut off the bottom and it is just fine. Delicious, actually. I will be bringing it for breakfast this week.
I also have to put life into perspective. I really have a great life. I have really been blessed with a lot of great people in my life. I also have a job I love, a house, and food on the table. Really, this funk is my own doing and I need to bring myself out of it.
The only thing in my life that is causing me much stress is trying to lose this weight. I have to do it. That is fact. So, I just need to suck it up and do it. I need to exercise, I need to count calories, and I just need to do it without complaint, or woe, or a defeatist attitude. Someone once said that food does not taste as good as thin feels. I am not so sure about that. I love how food tastes and I love to eat. I know what thin feels like, and sometimes it just does not compare to a peanut butter and marshmallow fluff sandwich on a cold October evening when I am all alone J I jest.
As I type this I am so hungry. REALLYHUNGRY! No amount of water is going to make up for the food I want to eat. I have tried it. I just need to suck it up. I can only eat what I can eat in a calorie-driven day. And, that is it. It is so annoying when people go on and on ad nauseum about stuff like this, but I just have to do it. I have to keep talking it out to build myself up. Oh, and this is my blog, so I can do what I want and talk about what I want and over-all just write posts on whatever topic moves me. So there.