Last night I spent several hours cleaning my oven.
I know, fun, right?
My oven was gross. In fact, I hated using it because it smelled like burning something every time I turned it on. This is no one’s fault but my own as the oven was brand new when we moved in and I have just neglected it for a long time. Every time I would make an effort to clean it I would come up with some sort of excuse to put the task off. In fact, I was sort of waiting for someone else to do it for me (aka, my mom) and just got really lazy about the whole thing. Finally, I became so annoyed with my own procrastination I just did it.
And you know what? It wasn’t so bad. In fact, it was one of the easiest tasks I have ever done. The self-cleaning feature actually worked (who knew?) and I only had to sit and wait the four hours until it needed to be shut off. Then, this morning I took a mere five minutes and wiped it out with a Clorox Wipe and then a dry paper towel.
My oven could be a metaphor for my life. I spend so much time talking myself out of things and thinking things are too hard for me to accomplish or whatever that I waste the precious time that I have. I make up excuses for things that I really know nothing about and never really take the first step in doing.
I want to be a runner. I want to be a person who other people look to as an athlete. But, I spend a lot of time in negative self-talk. I tell myself I am too out of shape and fat to run. I make excuses to skip work-outs. I make unhealthy food choices. Basically, I sabotage myself. ALL.THE.TIME.
But this time, this time I FEEL differently. I am not going to be scared to take the plunge. I am going full-force with my work-outs and eating. Even with low results on the scale I still understand that doing something is better than nothing. I am not going to fear the unknown (hello, taking a WEIGHT LIFTING one on one class next week!) and I am going to embrace this new lifestyle I have chosen for myself.
good great, amazing, happy! I really want to enjoy this journey and I want to be on this journey for the rest of my life. No more excuses, no more procrastination, no more putting it off. I am a changing, and it feels fantastic.
Also, because I only have two work-out tops and bottoms I have decided to cut myself some slack and bust out the Old Navy box this weekend. My updated reward for a 10 pound loss is a new dry-fit shirt. And I am happy about it because it is my life and my reward system and my blog. HA!