You can’t please everyone…
I have been thinking about that statement a lot lately. My whole life I have felt like I was pulled in many different directions. Mostly it has been self-imposed because I am a “yes” person, but more recently I have let the reactions of other people rule my mood; and I don’t like it.
This weekend someone said something very nasty about me behind my back, to my mom. Specifically, it was about my weight and how every time she sees me my clothes look tighter and tighter.
And when it was repeated to me I was very hurt by the comment. In fact, I almost cried about it.
Then I thought to myself, who is this person to judge me? In fact, I have lost 20 pounds since August. And I am working out daily. And I am feeling good. Am I really going to let someone control my emotions and how I feel about myself?
And, so I got over it.
My mom may never get over it.
I also have a problem with letting people’s reactions get the best of me. I try my best to include everyone and to make people feel welcome and appreciated. I don’t live in the same city as many of my family and friends do, so when I have something going on not everyone can come. I am no longer going to feel bad about that. I am going to live the life that I am craving for me and for my family. I cannot control how other people feel about me.
In better news…
I have been purging my house room by room. It has been awesome. Shawn added to the fun this weekend by cleaning out his clothes in the closet. I am proud of him…that is not something he likes to do, but he did it and I know he felt good about it when he was finished. I have two small projects left (guest room closet and Megan’s closet) and then it is on to the garage and the basement which might take all winter, but I am going to do it. By spring I want to move on to our first large project since moving into our home. We are going to re-decorate the living room which includes new flooring, new paint, new wiring, new furniture and possibly a built in. WOW writing that down makes it seem like a huge undertaking. Young House Love I am not J
Anyways, I feel better getting all of that off my chest. I am looking forward to a fabulous week. After all, Halloween is one of my favorite holidays!
Today I married my best friend.
Nine years ago today I was standing in the back of St. Brendan’s church peeking through the blinds as my favorite people flooded into the church. I always wanted to get married in a packed church full of the people I loved the most. I wanted to walk through those double doors, with my dad holding on to me for support, and watch the sea of people smiling and crying tears of joy for me, for us. I wanted to navigate through those people and end up in the front with the man I loved; the one God intended for me.
We might not have the perfect marriage by the book, but in my eyes we have a perfect marriage for us. When he walks into the room I still feel butterflies deep in my belly. He has made my dreams come true. I don’t often express how much I love Shawn, but I do…very much.
I know I say this all the time, but time is really flying by. October is passing in a blink and I am not ready for the craziness of the holidays yet. Time. Just stop. Seriously.
We had a great weekend full of lots of fun and a good amount of down time. Megan went on her first sleepover and we sent Tyler off to Grandma’s which led to our first kid-free night since Megan came into our world (I am pretty sure). We had an awesome dinner out and and even better evening just hanging by ourselves at home. But, I must admit, I missed my little ones. I was glad to pick them up Sunday morning.
We also attended our first costume party of the season and it delivered. Big time. Meg was LaLaLoopsey and Ty was Batman (obvi)…they might have been the cutest kids there…in my opinion, anyway.
On Sunday we watched my nephew’s last peewee football game and had a lazy afternoon with family. Just what the doctor ordered.
Oh, and last week Tyler had his first dentist appointment. My kids love the dentist. That is weird to me.
Hope you all had a great weekend and are gearing up for an even better week. I have conferences this week, so it will be busy but good. No work Friday. WooHoo!
I should add, I have become a morning exerciser. It has been over 28 days so I will consider it a habit. Call me crazy, but I kind of love it. I feel so amazing all day long. The first five minutes (getting up) is always the hardest but once I am out of bed it is up and up from there. Oh, and my clothes are fitting so much better. Yay for progress.
Anyone else easing into a new regiment this fall?
Yesterday was the third anniversary of my dad’s death.
Day to day life moves on and it sometimes doesn’t sting as bad as it did before.
But then something big happens and his is the first number I want to call and it is heartbreaking.
So, instead of being sad, I am going to embrace the happy and write a list of things I loved about my dad (You know I love lists and he did too!):
1. He was the life of the party. Everyone wanted to be around him.
2. His generosity went beyond anything ever expected.
3. He loved my girlfriends and treated them like his own.
4. He had the legs of a runner and ran daily for 20 years.
5. I loved to hang out and drink coffee with him (our local McDonald’s was a favorite spot).
6. He was so easy to talk to and made all of my problems go away.
7. Putting others before himself was a life-long goal of his.
8. His devotion to family, faith and friends has guided me throughout my life.
9. Oh my goodness, how he adored Megan. Thinking about that always makes me cry.
10. Vacations…he always took us on the best vacations.
11. He always encouraged me to be the best version of myself and to take risks.
12. He was so, so proud of me and my brother and always expressed his pride to anyone who would listen…really, anyone.
13. He made the BEST Thanksgiving turkey.
14. He bought me running shoes whenever I needed them.
15. He always took care of us, even after I was married I knew I could count on him.
16. Eating corn…he ate corn in the funniest way.
17. He always dressed up, even when he was just hanging around the house he always looked nice.
18. Perfect teeth, no braces!
19. Even on his death bed he kept asking us if we were okay. That says something about a person.
20. He gave the best hugs and kisses.
Sometime I feel like I have nothing to write about.
My life seems pretty full, but there is nothing worth reporting or I do something fun but then I am too busy or tired or stressed to actually write about it.
I guess that it why I will never been a famous blogger…I just don’t have the commitment to it.
Oh well, I will just keep doing what I am doing.
Last November I committed to writing a post every day. I will not be doing that this year!
Six things going on in my world…
1. I started the bikini diet this week. This blog makes sense to me. She believe that dieting is 90% food intake and 10% exercise. Since January (and, especially, June) I have really been committed to 4-5 days a week of exercise for at least 60 minutes. Unfortunately, I have seen very little results. This leads me to believe that my diet sucks. When I did the 7 day detox I lost 13 pounds in one week…interesting. I am not looking for a “quick fix” but I certainly would like to lose something for all the effort I am putting in at the gym.
2. We went to Great Wolf Lodge over the weekend. Shawn’s co-worker’s mom works there so we got a cheap room. However, GWL is not a cheap place. We spent more money than I would have liked to, but the kids LOVED it ( and so did we). It was a great family Staycation” (GWL is 5 minutes from our home) and we were all exhausted but so relaxed and rejuvenated when we came home.
3. I found Megan a pair of Twinkle Toes and it didn’t cost me a week’s pay! They were on clearance at Kohl’s for $21.99 and I had a 30% coupon so I ended up spending about $16 on them. That was a major win!
4. This weekend is my high school reunion. Our class president has done a horrible job planning it, so I am not hoping for anything spectacular, but it will be nice to see some people I have not seen in a while and also hang out with a couple of my BFF’s and their husbands.
5. October is the best month but also the worst. The anniversary of my dad’s death is coming up. This weekend we are spending time remembering him and doing some fun stuff in his honor.
6. For the first time in a long time I looked at Megan and Tyler and realized I am so happy to be a mom of two awesome kiddos. I always thought I wanted (needed) more children, but right now I feel really content. I have struggled with this for the last year because I keep picturing in my mind three little kiddos…but if that never happens, I am fine with it, really.
Yesterday I started a week of eating on track.
It always surprises me how little food the body needs to sustain itself. Yesterday was 1500 calories and I was satisfied.
Could I have eaten more? Of course! Did I need to eat more. Definite no.
I am going back to smoothies for breakfast because I realize now that they are super delicious and filling and when I have one in the morning it sets my whole day. My new favorite combo is as follows:
½ cup Greek yogurt
½ cup almond milk
2 teaspoons almond butter
½ cup frozen fruit (today it was cherries, YUM!)
I have been working on perfecting that combination for weeks. Now that I have written it down it seems funny…almost too simple.
Shawn is trying to stick to no complex carbs, but that is just not how I roll. When I deprive myself of a food group that is all I want. I know better than to do this. But, since I am counting calories, I have to reduce my carbs if I want to stay in control. I am proud of Shawn because the first thing he had to give up was Coke and the man loves Coke. I don’t think the complex carbs thing will be that difficult for him…but the Coke. Insane. He might drop 20 pounds this week without it.
Then I would be irritated…but happy for him.
It is easier to stick to a plan when you know your significant other is doing it as well…at least for me. Even though we do not see each other during the week, it still is reassuring knowing that he is also taking part in a lifestyle change.
I feel like I am in a rut. Everything is status quo, but I feel bored but stressed, happy but also a little depressed, calm but anxious. I know this makes no sense, but it is clear to me.
We have a very busy October. In fact, this weekend is our last free weekend until November. Craaaaaazzzyyyyyy!!!!!
I love being busy, but I also get anxious and high strung when there is too much going on. My goal for October is to keep my anxiety in check and ask for help when I need it. Easier said than done.
I guess that is all for now. I am pretty happy that tonight is free with nothing planned but the gym and home. YAY!!!! It is so nice out we will be able to ride bikes and scooters one my night, That rocks. Outside play means tired children.
Do you have any big plans for a Tuesday?
What are you eating this week?