I am not going to show before pictures right now because I feel like it will be much too depressing for me to handle. I am actually horrified by how I look right at this moment. It makes me feel sick and I am glad this is the last time I will have to see those numbers or look at a picture of myself like that.
The fact of the matter is that I have not taken very good care of my physical self since I had Ryan. I can blame it on a lot of things; lack of sleep, insatiable appetite, whatnot. But when it comes down to it, I ate a lot and I moved very little and I gained weight. Like, a lot of weight. And it wasn’t like I was small to begin with. I gained weight on top of the weight I already needed to lose.
So, here I am, January 5th and starting a new phase of my life; “The Before” as I am lovingly referring to it. It is a healthy phase which I chose me and my health over everything else in my life. Of course I am going to take care of my kids and continue to be a wife and a friend, but I need to take control of my life and my fitness and my health. I can do this for my kids and for my husband and for my friendships but I want and need to do this for me.
Short term goal: Complete the January “Diet Bet” by losing 10+ pounds.
Medium term goal: Lose 25 pounds by my 40th birthday (March 26th)
My long term goals will be assessed when I complete these first two goals.
I know I can do this.
I have lost weight before and been very successful at it. I need to stick to a plan like it is my job and allow little or no movement in what I have planned. I will incorporate foods that I love into the plan so I will not feel deprived. I need to eat A LOT less than I have been eating in the last few months. I need to drink A LOT more water than I am used to. I need to MOVE everyday (10,000 steps is the short term goal on that).
I need to be better.
I will be better.
Everyone else is secondary in this journey. I need to improve myself so I can be better for everyone around me. I know that may sound very selfish and it is! I have not been selfish in a long time. And I deserve it. I really do.
Who wants to join me on this journey?