This week has been hard-fought. As I wrote last Tuesday, my back went completely out on Monday and was out all week. I was not able to go to the gym or basically walk without pain all week. I am still feeling the affects of it today. If I move wrong, I feel like I am on the verge of it going out again. Back pain is absolutely no joke. It sucks, actually.
I am a very scheduled person. I like things to be done a certain way in a certain time frame. When my schedule is shifted even a little bit my anxiety flares up and my attitude becomes one of doom and gloom. So when I hurt my back I started to think that things were awful and there would be no way I could meet my goals and I should just stop trying. But then I picked my mood back up and decided to just try and eat well for the week and see where it takes me. I had less than a 1/2 pound to lose, so I figured it would be worth a try.
My movement was way down and I was trying to eat well but there was also a lot of distractions during the week…a teacher luncheon, cake on a couple of days, and, of course the Super Bowl party last night.
I am proud to say, “I DID IT!” In fact, I actually lost more than my goal for the month. I am happy about this. When I look back at the month, I had a lot of ups and downs, but mostly it was good. I re-trained my brain to realize that food is not the end-all-be-all of life. I can say no to certain indulgences and be okay with it. I also can yes to some things as long as I am reasonable about it.
Losing weight is definitely a mental game. It involves a lot of toughness and perseverance. Exercising adds another dimension to it. I actually love going to the gym and having certified “ME” time everyday. My work-outs are difficult, but the hardest part is scheduling the rest of my life. Making a commitment to the gym means not having the laundry done all the time, it means eating dinner a bit later than normal, it means having less time to actually spend with my children during the week. But, the benefits definitely outweigh the downfalls…I am teaching my children a healthy habit, we have played a lot more this month then we have in a while. I make it a point to hang out with them on the indoor soccer field or the climbing wall. My kids know this is what we do and why we do it; mommy wants to be healthy and being healthy makes all if us happy.
I feel better about myself so I am becoming a better wife and mother.
It isn’t all happiness all the time, though. I actually LOVE food and I LOVE eating…so it is hard to manage not being able to eat what I want when I want. The struggle is real for me. This is a lifestyle change that is going to need constant tweaking for a long time . I have lost a lot of weight before and I know how easy it is to gain it back. Realizing that this is my life is sometimes a hard pill to swallow.
But, alas, it is time for the good stuff…
Here are my stats for this week:
Weight Loss: -.8
January Goal: -12
# Away from goal: -12.6
Reward: Gel Manicure
So, I earned a gel manicure, which I am thrilled about it. Don’t know when I will do it, but I am looking forward to it. I will be back this week with some goals for February.