Make a Change Monday #8

I will start on a positive note…I was finally able to fit in my gel manicure for meeting my January goal (one day before the end of February, but still, I am happy about it) That may be my only positive of the week.

I have fallen…and I have fallen hard.

Ever since the unexpected week off of work I have been on a horrible slippery slope called the “February Funk.” It has been awful and I have been trying to work my way out of it and I finally have today.

It is March and I am happy about it.  Goodbye February.  I will not miss you.

I started over this morning.  I am still down quite a few pounds from the beginning of January, but I am nowhere near where I wanted to or planned to be in my weight loss journey.  Enough is enough. I have to be better and I have to give myself less slack.  It is a necessity.   I get so off track when my schedule even gets a bit off.  This has been my downfall for a long time…I am a creature of habit and routines and doing things a certain way.  But this is life and life is not pretty and wrapped in bow all the times.  Things will get harder and more crazy as the years go on so I am just going to have to get used to adapting and changing and fitting in a workout when I have the time…even if it is only 15 minutes.  I have to eat what I track and not a bite more.  And, if I want more, I need to track it and deal with the consequences.

The thing I hate most about this hole I have put myself in is that I HATE how I feel when I am not tracking and exercising.  I LOVE how my body feels when it is in transition.  I can actually feel the burn inside of me.  I am not sure if anyone understands this feeling, but it is awesome.  I want to feel it again.  Like, right now, today.

I only met my salad goal.  I did not work out 4 days a week nor did I lose ten pounds this month.  I am down, but not defeated. Actually, I am really not down.  I feel good today.  I feel ready to get back on the bandwagon and conquer this thing.  I have no goals for the month other than to be down at the end of it.  I know what I have to do to get there.

I will be 40 on March 26 and even though I will be no where near a weight that I would like to be at, I will feel better than I do today.  That is a promise!

Here are my stats for this week (I am owning them, even though it sucks):

Weight loss: +3.6
Total Pounds Lost: -14.6


Make a Change Monday #6

What started as a great week food and exercise-wise turned into a real struggle towards the end. It was totally my fault…lack if planning, poor choices, and a difficult time making it to the gym all contributed. But, hey, this is life and life is imperfect and flawed and messy sometimes.

I am not mad about it. I realize if I want results I need to work for them. I also realize that sometimes the only effort I can give is to try and maintain what I have already lost.

I love the blog RunsforCookies and she had a friend tell her a couple weeks ago, “just get it over with” and that is what I really need to do…lose the weight, as much as I can, in the shortest amount of time in the healthiest way possible.

It’s a new week and I ready for it!

Here are my stats for this week:
Weight loss: -.2
Total Pounds Lost: -19

February Goal: -10
# Away from Goal: 4.2
Reward: Gel Manicure

Make a Change Monday #5

Make a Change Monday #5

Another week is down for the books.  It has been a better week than last.  Physically, I am feeling much stronger and my back seems to be doing better.  I am certainly not at 100% but I would say I am in the 90% range most days.  Back issues are awful for so many reasons but the biggest is that it affects everything you do in your life.  I do not sit down, stand up, walk, run, put in a load of laundry, make a bed, or anything without first thinking about the movement I am about to make and feeling and acknowledging what my body is telling me.  It is something I will live with for the rest of my life.  I am not complaining about it, just facing the facts.

I am happy to report that diet and exercise-wise it has been an awesome week for me. Something in my brain has “clicked” and I feel like I am on a great path.  As with any change, things could downward spiral very quickly, so I am not taking this great attitude for granted.  It is still a day to day hour by hour minute by minute struggle sometimes.  I am so glad I have my friend Beth with me on this journey.  It is nice to have someone to check in with who “gets it” and does not judge!

As for non-scale victories, I have had a few this week that I would like to write about. First, I ordered a pair of jeans from Old Navy to get me through until more of my pants fit (I assume everyone has done this at some point in their lives) and when they came in they were too big.  Yes, my friends, TOO BIG!!!!!  I mean, they were not a size smaller than I normally wear or anything like that so I am not like having-a-party excited, but I am happy that finally I am moving in the right direction!  With that, I decided to try on a pair of my own jeans that I was not able to get around my hips in December and they FIT!!!!!  They were not even skin tight.  I wore them to church on Sunday!!!!!  Finally, with Tyler’s birthday, there was all the cake and all the food and I really did keep myself in check.  I indulged in a couple of things that I thought were worth it (cheese balls) and skipped mostly everything else.  I ate my calories in cheese and crackers, but I was fine with that.

My work-outs were back up to about 90% (with my back issues) and I did manage to make it to the gym 4 days this week so I have stayed within my February goals.  I have fallen in love all over again with the Elliptical Trainer.  Such a good, hard exercise!

Oh, and I will be getting my manicure sometime this week, for sure!!!!

All in all, I would say this has been an amazing week.  It was not easy, but things that are worth it usually are not.

Who is on this journey with me?  How was your week?

Here are my stats for this week:

Weight Loss: -6.6
Total Pounds Lost:  -18.8

February Goal: -10
# Away from goal: -4.4
Reward: Another Gel Manicure

Make a Change Monday #4

This week has been hard-fought.  As I wrote last Tuesday, my back went completely out on Monday and was out all week.  I was not able to go to the gym or basically walk without pain all week.  I am still feeling the affects of it today.  If I move wrong, I feel like I am on the verge of it going out again.  Back pain is absolutely no joke.  It sucks, actually.

I am a very scheduled person.  I like things to be done a certain way in a certain time frame.  When my schedule is shifted even a little bit my anxiety flares up and my attitude becomes one of doom and gloom.  So when I hurt my back I started to think that things were awful and there would be no way I could meet my goals and I should just stop trying. But then I picked my mood back up and decided to just try and eat well for the week and see where it takes me.  I had less than a 1/2 pound to lose, so I figured it would be worth a try.

My movement was way down and I was trying to eat well but there was also a lot of distractions during the week…a teacher luncheon, cake on a couple of days, and, of course the Super Bowl party last night.

I am proud to say, “I DID IT!”  In fact, I actually lost more than my goal for the month.  I am happy about this.  When I look back at the month, I had a lot of ups and downs, but mostly it was good.  I re-trained my brain to realize that food is not the end-all-be-all of life.  I can say no to certain indulgences and be okay with it.  I also can yes to some things as long as I am reasonable about it.

Losing weight is definitely a mental game.  It involves a lot of toughness and perseverance.  Exercising adds another dimension to it.  I actually love going to the gym and having certified “ME” time everyday.  My work-outs are difficult, but the hardest part is scheduling the rest of my life.  Making a commitment to the gym means not having the laundry done all the time, it means eating dinner a bit later than normal, it means having less time to actually spend with my children during the week.  But, the benefits definitely outweigh the downfalls…I am teaching my children a healthy habit, we have played a lot more this month then we have in a while.  I make it a point to hang out with them on the indoor soccer field or the climbing wall.  My kids know this is what we do and why we do it; mommy wants to be healthy and being healthy makes all if us happy.

I feel better about myself so I am becoming a better wife and mother.

It isn’t all happiness all the time, though.  I actually LOVE food and I LOVE eating…so it is hard to manage not being able to eat what I want when I want.  The struggle is real for me.  This is a lifestyle change that is going to need constant tweaking for a long time .  I have lost a lot of weight before and I know how easy it is to gain it back.  Realizing that this is my life is sometimes a hard pill to swallow.

But, alas, it is time for the good stuff…

Here are my stats for this week:

Weight Loss: -.8
January Goal: -12
# Away from goal: -12.6
Reward: Gel Manicure

So, I earned a gel manicure, which I am thrilled about it.  Don’t know when I will do it, but I am looking forward to it.  I will be back this week with some goals for February.

Make a Change Monday #3

In the spirit of transparency, this has been a mentally challenging week. I had a lot going on personally, little sleep on most nights and tons of work during the day. I am proud to say that this week only made me stronger and more determined. Even during weight loss and the struggles that comes with it, I am trying to live a joyful existence ( I guess you could say joyful is my “word” for 2015), I took all of my challenges in stride and let nothing turn into an excuse to wallow or be lazy or to skip out on my responsibilities to myself and to my health.

I kicked butt and I am happy about it.

After being a bit disappointed the week before, I wanted to make this week count and I wanted to see a big number on the scale. I stayed well within my calorie goal, I exercised everyday, and I got in at least 12,000 steps a day.

I kicked butt…I know, I already said that!

Here are my stats for this week:

Weight Loss: -6
January Goal: -12
# Away from goal: -1 (technically, .2)
Reward: Gel Manicure

In the upcoming week I am going to concentrate on the same things as I did this week…water, movement, and good choices. It is also the last week of my diet bet, so I need to lose that last pound or I don’t get my money back. That, my friends, is motivation enough for me!

Who is with me this week????

20150125-210624.jpg It’s also my favorite week of the year, but I will talk more about that in the coming days

Make a Change Monday #2

The second week let-down is all I can say. Week #2 always seems to be the most difficult for me to stay in track. It didn’t help that I was sitting at work almost the entire week since I had guest speakers in.

While it wasn’t terrible, it wasn’t great either. While I made some good choices and I did make it to the gym 5/7 days, my effort was not stellar on either front. I know I can do better, I am already starting this week off better.

Oh, and water, I absolutely need to be more diligent with drinking water. I will be bloated this week (hello, Aunt Flo) so I need to counteract this by hydrating, hydrating, hydrating!

Here’s to a better week!

Here are my stats for this week:

Weight Loss: -.4
January Goal: -12
# Away from goal: -6
Reward: Gel Manicure

Make A Change Monday #1

I lost my Fitbit this morning. I know I had it on for a while because we had a 90 minute delay so I was running around the house doing laundry, emptying the dishwasher, putting away clothes, and picking up toys. By the time I left the house I had 2,400 steps (I checked on my phone). I have to believe it fell of when I was getting the kids ready to get in the car. I have an irrational fear that it is gone forever. In the short time that I have had it I have sort of become obsessed with it…and I will have to replace it if it is lost…and I am totally cheap, so that will break my heart. I hope it is just lying on the floor right in front of the door when I get home. That would make me so happy.

I have decided to report on my weight-loss goals and activities every Monday because I am going to weigh-in on Sunday morning. I am going to call this post “Make a Change Monday” and this will be a place where I can see my progress and/or set-backs. If anyone out there reads this blog (BethJ) and has a blog and would like to join in the fun, feel free to use the same title and then comment so I know you are doing in and I can follow you also!

So here I go…

I actually had a great first week. In my experiences first weeks are always the best weeks because I can always stay pumped for a week. It is week #2 that makes me nervous. In terms of good first weeks, this is the best one I have had in a long time. Not that it was easy by any means, but it was tolerable. I find that I have to really PLAN well in order to have a good week. I am not going to use having children as a crutch, but I will say that the kid factor makes everything just a little more tricky.

I stayed within my calorie range which is always difficult for me, but I did it. I was very proud of this! I really stuck to a meal plan and followed it pretty closely. If you saw my breakfasts, lunches or dinners you might not even think I am dieting. I ate delicious food and I planned full meals and snacks so I had a lot of choices. This is something I always mess up in the beginning. I try and control too much and then I want to eat ALL THE FOOD. So this time I did not deprive myself; I did, however, give myself a lot of portion controlled items so I had a choice of what I wanted and if I wanted everything for lunch instead of saving something for an afternoon snack, so be it! This plan worked great for me. Even when I came home from the gym and was starving, I planned a snack to tide me over while I made dinner.

As far as exercise goes, I absolutely nailed it. I made it to the gym 6/7 days even in sub-zero temperatures with three kids in toe. I am also very proud of myself for that.

I am going to have month by month goals for now because I have no idea at this point where I want to be. Oh, and I know the first week is always a big loss but I am happy with it nonetheless!

Here are my stats for this week:

Weight Loss: -6.4
January Goal: -12
# Away from goal: -5.4
Reward: Gel Manicure